Inspired BY (@COURTWRITES), COLUMNIST
What was one of the moments I was most proud of last year? What does that tell me about what I want to spend my energy/time/money on next year?
The thing I was most proud of last year was giving birth my beautiful daughter. I was humbled to be apart of the life giving process of creation. Motherhood is a honorable journey to embark on. It’s hard work, but truly worth it. Being responsible for an entire whole human being, outside of myself, frightens me everyday but it has taught me to be fierce and courageous. This tells me that I need to be more centered on family building. It’s of great importance for me being there for my friends and family this year. I want to be a better mother, lover, partner and friend. I am going to invest in more things that will help me establish healthy boundaries in my professional and personal life. Also, maintaining a healthy work/ life balance will be placed on the top of my priorities.
Who really enriched my life last year in a big way? Who is someone I am wanting to get to know better in the year ahead?
My life was enriched most by my family, but most importantly my mother Hope P. Ervin. She gave me hope for the future when I felt like giving up. She inspired and pushed me to keep going when I felt like life was getting too hard. My bestfriend played a major part in my life too. After we seperated, I engaged in a series of broken relationships trying to heal the scars that were placed on my heart. I made a lot of mistakes, but he uplifted me and encouraged me in my darkest hours. He never gave up on me despite my decision to leave him. His loyalty remained the same. He loved me unconditionally with the love of God and for that I am eternally grateful to have such a great man in my life. We’ve had our ups and downs but nothing will ever come between our partnership.
Also, I am looking forward to getting to know my co-workers and fellow tribe members in my new job this upcoming year. I work in an amazing culturally-centered organization that supports my leadership development and appreciate me. I want to develop deeper working relationships and professionally invest myself to building my brand and establish better working relationships with my ALL of my team.
It was a year of resistance for many people. What did I resist most effectively? What did I surrender to?
I resisted the urge to return back to anything that no longer served me. I went through a series of situations where I did not have boundaries. I was belittle, degraded, walked over and taken advantage of many times. But I allowed it. After the birth of my child, I made it a personal mission to establish healthy boundaries. So far, it’s been working. I plan on keeping this in 2018. I am stronger, wiser and better.
Who did I feel most jealous of last year? What is that person up to that I want to bring more of into my own life?
I was so focused and centered on creating the life I needed that I had no room for jealousy. The thing about jealousy, is that it takes an enormous amount of energy worrying about what other’s are doing, accomplishing and succeeding at. That same energy you waste doing that, could be driven towards your OWN success. There is so much beauty in being truly in love with One self. If you truly love your self, you’ll be inspired to achieve more, do more and achieve more. At the end of the day, I just want to be a better ME. My mission is to be better to myself and truly understand my worth.